the whirlwind

So presently, I am sitting in the comfort of my own home. My dogs sitting next to me sleeping the day away. Outside is the sunny Cali weather surrounds all, the day is in full swing. The truth is, I miss Thailand. For many reasons I wish I could be back, even for just a second. It ended too fast, and the sad part is I was looking forward to the end. It was such a whirlwind, I didn't quite really feel the weight of leaving. At this moment I don't feel at home, I feel unsettled. It's feeling I can't quite explain and I'm quite sure how to deal. This didn't really hit me until Erin left my house yesterday. It's really over, and we're the only ones that understand.