1. Loved. Just this Monday, two of my previous students returned. Lemon and Soda greeted me very warmly. Lemon even gave me a big hug, and told me she missed me. I was touched.
2. Overwhelmed. That very same Monday, I was at the point of major tears during my beginners kids class. Who knew such cute kids could make you feel this way!? While half of my class (the older kids) were sitting quietly and behaving, I had three others screaming for my attention and running wild. I could feel my frustration boiling, but I had been feeling sick and my sore throat prevented me from raising my voice. Instead I left and got Pnee (school secretary) to speak to them in Thai. As soon as they were being reprimanded, the youngest of the three broke out in tears. All I could think was, 'great! that's all I need.' At that point I was so close to giving and crying with him. I just felt so overwhelmed and I didn't know what to do.
3. Successful. This term I teaching two beginner level classes, for high school aged students. I enjoy and even look forward to this time of day. It's so much fun to teach these students. We always have a good time. They open up and ask questions which makes teaching them even more great!
I expect the ups and downs to come and go. I mean some days I feel so overwhelmed with my kids class, and then on others I feel like I'm actually teaching them something. And thats what matters. The bottom line is I love being a teacher. I love that feeling of accomplishment, knowing I'm making a difference. Even on the days when I have no idea that I am. I pray and hope that my efforts are not in vain but that I really am doing something good.
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