confused as heck

i need clarity. and i know where to get that clarity...why is it so hard for me to trust?

spring break was not so spring-y

well it's over. and now that it's come and gone, i want it back. this past weekend was so much fun. two of my friends from cali came and visited me. it was so great to be able to share with them my world at andrews. here we are tuesday of this week and i already want the weekend. i'm so schooled out. so many things are cloudy my mind...i need clarity. it doesn't help that it's so gray outside. i need sun. that's what i want more than anything. sun. and a blue sky. that would be nice.

day two

i'm done with spring break already!! although i don't want school to return i do want the life of the school to return. it's completely dead here, and it's killing me. i can do this!!! i think! haha. maybe. just kidding. i can. and i will make it through this horrible week. and along the way i will get work done!

spring break: the beginning

so here i am. sitting here on my bed listening "life's a song" by Patrick Park and blogging. that's most likely the extent of my fun today. haha. i'm a little bitter, but not for long. it should get better, for sure by next weekend, when my friends come to visit and everyone starts returning from break!!

on another note: i'm really confused, right now. i think God is testing me. but i won't stop trusting Him, there's a reason for everything that he does, i just need to remember that.

road trip to ohio

this weekend was so much fun. got a chance to road trip down to ohio with friends. it was like a blizzard there. we left the snowless, blue sky michigan and drove five hours to the very snowy state of ohio.

with this weekend brought new confusions to my life. but that's life, right? i'm trying to not think about it, and i'm praying that God will handle it, actually more that i will let Him. only time can tell.

now i just need to stop blogging and write two papers...at least, maybe three.

best week

yes. the best week, but not because of school. this week, i finally feel like i was able to just be myself. it's amazing. feels good to be back.

my life is in His hands

this weekend a year ago was one of the hardest times of my life. but i look back now at this year, and it has been one of the best years despite some sadness. but overall i've met some really great people, and the best part of all i've grown to know Jesus as my best friend!

"Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7

this verse got me through the hard times. it's by God's good grace that i made it from that dark place, and now i look toward the future in confidence that He's got me the whole way!