Precious Lord

Precious Lord, take my hand,
Lead me on, let me stand,
I am tired, I am weak, I am worn;
Through the storm, through the night,
Lead me on to the light:

Take my hand, precious Lord,
Lead me home.

When my way grows drear,
Precious Lord, linger near,
When my life is almost gone,
Hear my cry, hear my call,
Hold my hand lest I fall:

When the darkness appears
And the night draws near,
And the day is past and gone,
At the river I stand,
Guide my feet, hold my hand


we sang this song today in assembly. i was just really moved by the words.

donating blood

yup! i did it! i'm so proud of myself, i was really nervous. i was actually half hoping that wouldn't have enough iron, but nope i was fine. but i'm really glad i got to do it. more people should really donate, it's really not all that bad, i'm living proof.

on top of being really tired from giving blood, this week has been exhausting. i've had so many appointments, and it's just never ending. i'm so thankful that although i'm stressed, things are getting done smoothly. i had to join this missions class, and it's already half way over so i have a ton of back work to do. i'm praying that i'll get through it.

one more thing that has really been on my heart: i'm so happy to have gotten close to this one friend. lately i've been hanging out w/ other people and it's just wonderful to be not dealing with fake people. i'm so over that.

next chapter

so, next year i will no long have to endure the cold michigan weather, instead i'll be enjoying the average 80 degree weather of Pohnpei, Micronesia. starting august 3 and until may 31st. i'll will be taking resident on this small island, instructing elementary. i'm so excited to have this chance! i can hardly wait. life will completely change, but that's okay. i'm alright with that, change isn't always bad, especially by who is doing the change. my life is not my own, and i trust my heavenly Father. He's guiding me.

My Everyday Prayer

Father in Heaven,

This morning I thank you that You are the Strong and Faithful One. You alone are the LORD God Almighty. Today I ask that You would be to me just exactly what I need today.

Be to me the God of all Grace who pours Your grace into my heart as I seek to meet the needs of those around me. I need Your grace.

Be my Only Wise God. I need divine wisdom to juggle the many things in my life right now. Help me to trust You as my strong and faithful God in my home and relationships, my finances and my work.

Be to me my God of Hope as I look at this day today and also at the days ahead. In the changes and challenges that come let me find shelter, encompassed by You, The God of Love, The Living God and the Only True God.

Thank you that You are the Three in One, the God head that gives the wisdom and power of the Father, the love and compassion of the Son and the strength and empowerment of the Holy Spirit to me as I need it.

Help me today to feel Your strength and faithfulness is a powerful way and may my heart rest in You alone.

In the powerful name of Jesus I pray, amen.


This time last week i had no clue where my life was going...and now i'm contemplating moving to micronesia for 10 months to teach second grade. But you know the funny thing is, when i was asked what fears i had about this endeavor, the only one i could think of was giant spiders. i know it sounds petty but i really do have a serious fear of them. But anyways yeah, it must mean something that i could make this decision so quickly and not even have a second thought. I know that's God. He's been guiding me my whole life, and now with each and every step i'm trusting Him. I mean i couldn't have asked for a better response from my dad, who i thought was going to not like the idea of my traveling to the south pacific. but no, he thought it would be great, and he even mentioned, if that's where God's was leading me, then i should do it. That really comforted me, to know that my dad understands this is something in God's plan for me.

Now nothing's for sure yet, I have a meeting this afternoon, to discuss it with the missions director. But I know walking into this situation I have God with me, so I have nothing to fear, He's leading me.

SM: Student Missionary

????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that's exactly how i feel right now! confused?? and excited!! at the same time! I've been thinking about the possibility of me being a student missionary sometime in my college education. but the question was when? today it hit me, why not next year?? cause if i wait, it might be too late. so...i could be in pohnpei, Micronesia this time next year!

I'm leaving it to God, my life is in his hands. So if that's where He leads me then so be it. I trust Him...

words to live by

laugh when you can,
apologize when you should,
and let go of what you can't change

there are somethings in life that i just don't understand. it's mind boggling sometimes of the things we face. and i know this such a general statement. but there's not just one thing that makes me think this. i've tried to look optimistically on life, but sometimes this life isn't fair. and i hate that. i hate the fact that things hardly ever go right, and when they do, it's not for long. here i am, venting.

i forget sometimes that these things that are screaming from my heart, i don't have to deal with. but as a human, and like every other person out there, we tend to worry and think the sky is falling when in reality, we have nothing to worry about. as a believer, i know that this life is going to be filled with terror and worries, but the greatest part is that with faith i know that God is watching over me every second of everyday. i once heard someone say, that for non-believers this world is as good as it gets. now it's such a simple thing to say, but in reality how sad is that? my life, as good as it gets? it's filled with imperfections and death, etc. how can anyone person be satisfied with this life we're stuck with. now that's mind boggling...

happy valentine's day

woo! it's officially the 14th of February. haha. it's the first valentine's day i'm not w/ someone in two years. it's a relief and a little sad. but i know that i've got plenty of friends that love me, and most of all i have a God who is my valentine everyday. 

i wish i could push a pause button on life. just for a second, so that i can catch my breath, and hopefully regain some perspective. life can be so overwhelming. but i know that i don't have to worry. i'm not alone in this life, and thank God it's not forever.

basement: going wide

tonight wasn't like every other tuesday night for me. i visited the village church here in berrien springs. tonight there's this youth group thing, that involves local public high school students from the area. ironically it's held in the basement of the church, and it's also called "the basement" but anyways, i'm really glad i went. it was truly a blessing. 

this evenings program was geared toward "going wide". the idea is to pray for someone that doesn't know jesus, and then introduce them to Him. and through constant prayer, hopefully reach that person and others. at point tonight, i spilt up into a group, and we specifically prayed for certain people and their specific issues. 

i truly admire the leaders of this group, they are so committed to helping and spreading Christ to these young people who don't know Him. it was a blessing to see and experience this first hand. i hope to go back soon. 

praying for others

just came back from my dorm hall worship. my RA spoke to us about praying for others. it's true we often forget to include the people around us in our prayers. lately i've been trying to pray for my close friends, because i know i'm not the only one with situations that need God, so in light of  everything, i'm going to try and pray consistently for my friends. 

"pray for each other...the earnest prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." James 5:16

the pacific ocean: is what i long for

i've realized that documenting my thoughts help me deal with life itself. and that is what prompted me to create this blog. i've had other blogs, but never really kept up with them. hopefully this one will stick, and give me insight into my life as i continue it's journey. 

so i'm already into second semester here at Andrews University, in Berrien Springs, Michigan. so far i've survived winter just fine, the snow is comforting most of time. except when i look at cali's weather and see it's a sunny 70 degree day there. that makes me long for california sunshine. in about two months and two weeks, i will be able to immerse myself in the pacific ocean, which i long for so badly.